Working on evolutionary ML with a focus on adaptive multi-objective functions and perserving weights while add/sub/modifying features parameters. Curious about Riemannian manifolds, chaotic blackbox uncertainty, signal processing, and stochastic calculus.
Overcoming Mental Warfare
When does pain stop? This constant back and forth of two titans colliding conscious never seens to let up...Will I ever escape? I must confront them, even if it means I will lose myself in the process. Fear not death but to live a life with undecisiveness.
Numbing Persistance
There is nothing you can do but endure and persist to grasp those dreams from many moons ago. It feels mind numbing, all this effort. Maybe one day you'll reach it but at what cost? Was it worth it? All that pain and suffering, for what cause? Are you fighting to survive or is this thought play for you? For me, it's survival. Without it I would have nothing, but to rot in my mind as time drifts by.
A Warrior's Journey
Deciding to become who you want to be is no easy feat. You are destined to battle the strongest of enemies on that path, sometimes with friends but majority of the time alone. What does the mind of one that is walking this path for the second time look like?
Today was one of the most successful days I've had in my life tbh:
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It feels like a giant rollercoaster of a day where I succeeded so well and don't have anyone to share the high with and am now crashing before I go to bed :(
. I mentioned it to a good friend and it kind of got ignored too, which sucks a lot. I find myself checking discord and telegram all day to see when my friends will be online so i can speak but some days nothing happens and im like damn, where is everyone and reminisce memories of the past.:/
I host a tecnhical podcast about math, science, crypto, HFT/MEV and infosec. I have experience in these fields which enables me to ask deeper questions than other podcasts with hosts with surface elvel knowledge.
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