Foreword

Note: Dates are in DD/MM/YEAR format.

The format will be along the lines of [time finished] - [title] and then followed with reflection bullet points to attempt to be better next time.

The aim behind this is to keep a general account of my active imagination attempts as I finalise them. I’ve always been interested to encounter the unconscious mind and see who I truly am inside, to understand the things that are kept behind the closed doors of my mind. Each time I attempt this there are interesting truths that make me want to go deeper. From the skeptical eye it looks like I’m insane, but really these are what I see what I attempt active imagination… Some things of the mind are thought as crazy unless you immerse yourself into the bigger picture and forget about the worries of daily life.

Maybe down the line the documentation of this experiment may come in useful, either for myself or someone else curious enough to read it.

I’m not so good at drawing so it may be hard to imagine what i was seeing. I’ll try to describe it as a best i can.

I think this connection between the conscious and unconscious enables enhanced creative problem solving since you enter a new way of thinking, nonliner symbolic reasoning, a very primitive way of thought. Maybe recording it like I do with my career will help me be consistent and eventually get to the point i can utilise it for problem solving. I imagine as i do more abstract math stuff with algebraic topology and whatnot it would enhance this ability quite a bit since it’s very symbolic too. Lets see how it goes :) - DeGatchi, 08/04/25, 18:09

2025

09/04/25 - Jungle Tribe + Nested Space Worms

I can’t really explain too much. I started trying to dig in a familiar beach, trying to start the Jungian digging technique. I imagined digging up the sand falling then imaging that harder dirty was underneath. I tried to imagine there was a door or something but there wasn’t, so i kept digging the hard parts. I figured i woudn’t look down anymore and just try to dig facing forwards, like im digging into the mind. As i was doing it i felt like it was this circle converging to the center, where i was digging, like a sink. I started to dig the edge instead of the center one time. I thought i saw some side tunnel so i tried to dig the edges of the top to make it fall easier. I couldn’t seem to enter and asked why i couldn’t enter. Miraculously i just teleported in and then it all started. Some darkness happened and glipses of random shapes emerging then disappearing, kind of like the outline of faces but with no close up features, just outlines.
Then after a bit I was in the middle of, what seemed, 2 dimensions that had this gap between them. It was like 2 different euclidean spaces with grids. I saw the atoms flowing in uniform, and i felt like i never hit that kind of high quality image before in one of these.
Then i was on top of some space ship going really fast but then fell off the top of it as it was going forward in space, then i floated in the abyss. Some huge space worm ate me in one bite. It had large teeth around its circumference face. No other features. I was falling in this long worm and then got eaten again while inside the worm, then the process happened again — falling inside the inner worm. Then i kept falling like a roller coaster again. Seems like these tunnel structures are common.
I turned around and was at the front of this modern hut door you’d see in something like goldilocks, but it was like steel not sticks. I opened the door with my left hand, walked in slowly and could see a circle of hooded small people with their heads facing down enough to the point I could only see their hooded robes instead of their faces. There was a fireplace in the middle they were sitting around. It felt like it was in a jungle based off the colours inside. At the center was their leader who was directly across from me on the other side of the pit of fire. I asked “who are you? why am i here? do you have anything to tell me?” but they said nothing and i was drifting in and out of this place like i was there then not repeatedly. No one said anything and just sat in their positions i initially saw them in. Idek what they were, they definitely weren’t human.

Then i can’t really remember what happened. But as the bells were ringing from the audio of https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yt0gp6P3nwU i was going back up this tunnel that was colored blue but there were lighter blue vein like structures. I had to tear open this weak green vine inside as i was floating through it, again like a roller coaster. There were different animals one my way through. The first was a huge moose with anteliers. A few seconds later it was a pheonix. Then i arrived back at the beach i started in, on the beginning of a hole. Im not sure what to make of this one.

Reflection

I think next time i need to try add thinking of what it sounds like and what the air feels like because i can imagine digging with my back and arms and the weight of the dirt/sand but when i get into the tunnel parts i just observe until something happens or if nothing happens i just dig in front of me, even if there is no dirt.
Seems like im getting somewhere though. I was like “nothing is happening” for 10 minutes then it all hit at once. Made me wonder what it would be like while on a hallucinogen but im already seeing thing sober like this. Its quite remarkable really. Definitely gets you thinking of “wtf is all this?“

08/04/25

17:16 - Golden-Blue Chest With Teeth, Sinking Sand Nausea

Did for 20 minutes somehow. The time went by way too fast.
This time i was actually digging in my back yard where my family home was. I felt some presence behind me of 2 people; i felt fearful. One behind my left and right shoulder as i dig down. But i also felt the presence in real life standing behind me as i had my eyes closed. I could actually see the hole being dug in first person. Sometimes the dirt was easy to lift and sometimes i had to push my foot into the shovel to get it to be unstuck. The perspective was switching between my first person and to the person standing above behind me, watching me dig the hole…
I eventually hit some leather belt like flaps from the dirt and i pulled on them. It was a golden outlined a treasure chest with dark blue fillings contained in the golden outlines. I asked “can i open this?”. i didn’t see a lock so i just pushed the top open. The chest had very sharp pointy teeth and its throat went what seeming looked like forever, like a void tunnel. It was alive. But it didn’t attack me. I thought to myself “do i go in? wouldn’t i die?”. I had 2 POVs: 1 looking at the chest in third person and another looking at it from the left like i was right next to it, this happens kind of often this split pov. I imagined that if i go in it would be like the rib cage tunnel but with teeth instead. I decided to keep digging. A few dips later it appeared i was in sand and i looked up and the entire environment was a desert. I tried to dig but all the surrounding sad flooded in slowly. I looked up again and i was contained in this square that was sinking to me, like a reverse pyramid. I don’t know if it was quick sand but it wasn’t the same thickness as it. It was just a lot of dry sand. I eventually felt a bit ill in real life like my body wasn’t prepared to continue exploring, or it was taking too much mental effort so i decided to open my eyes and somehow it had been 20 minutes…

I noticed my heart rate was practically beating out of my chest the entire time like i was fearful of something happening. Like someone was going to pounce on me. I was in fight or flight mode the entire time it seems and i got really hot during the entire thing, like in real life it was a really humid day. But when i open my eyes its not that hot at all…

Reflection

I went into this right after the one prior and felt a like i was nauseas and ill. Maybe that was my mind and body telling me that I wasn’t ready and needed time to recover. I did feel like i was still seeing things when i closed my eyes briefly before starting
Instead of being fearful of the fantasy’s characters, like the chest with teeth, i should just observe and ask “what are you”, “what are you trying to tell me”, etc. I can’t die in real life from the fantasy so i should yolo. And if i cant yolo because my character wont move i should question it.
09/04/25: upon further reflection, the chest was a perfect encapsulation of confronting the shadow — the chest contained both the treasure and the terror.

16:38 - Ribcage Tunnel, Vault Doors, Train To Stumbling Figure

*In reference to attempting: used the guided meditation video JUNG’S DIGGING METHOD

Saw a lot of red and black colours, fractals. I couldn’t dig when i tried. It was always solid stone below but when i stopped trying to dig i would fall into this continuous tunnel where the boundary was the inside of rib cages, like i was on a roller coaster through these inner ribcages where the colour was dark red and some hints of purple. I thought i saw someone in the distance. It was a small black figure that was jogging and stumbled a few times then vanished. I looked to my left and i was going really fast forward like i was in a train. I look back to my right to see the same figure doing the same things but i didn’t seem to get closer despite in this fast train.
I kept trying to dig and look for a door but i couldn’t get my self to look down it was always looking in front. When i came across things i thought were circular vault doors i couldn’t open. I saw a handle on one. The other one i had to tear down from top left to top right with my right hand that reached out but when i tore the bottom right corner it started pouring out some substance that kept on going. So i sat there for a few seconds and decided to dig deeper because it wouldn’t stop.
There was a period of yellowness that was wrapping around some other yellow colour.
I never got to meet anyone or anything. I could barely imagine dirt but i did imagine digging, just not being able to see where. I could feel the weight and the feeling of the wooden handle but i couldn’t imagine the smell. I could feel my muscles work though. I couldn’t imagine being anywhere either. It was just some place in space with black everywhere else. The hole seeming got deeper and deeper but i was at the edge of it every time, staring into the bottomless pit of blackness. I couldn’t force myself to go in. The characters perspective i was seeing didn’t obey my command to jump in. When they looked at the edges of the hole it was vibrating like sound waves, not static dirt.
There were no real characters but shapes that sort of made faces. All of these faces were not human at all but things you would see in nightmares and horror movies. Abominations of monsters or rather shadow demons of some sorts. I felt i was already in bedrock and there was nothing to dig into from the very start.

Reflection

Try add more sensory details like the sound of digging
When encountering something, question “why wont it open? what is behind it?” or “why can’t i jump in the hole? what is down there?”